500 days of summer
So the movie was always really odd when I first watched it..but that was when i was in a relationship and thinking nothing could ever touch us. I just watched it now, and im single/in an awkward position that i dont really like, and it meant something else.. Unsure how I feel, this feeling is odd.. I don’t want to move on, but I just want to be happy. Happy with him.. Let’s just hope I’ll be happy.
Sick - long rant.
So I’ve been sick since last Saturday, coughing non stop. Coughing so much it brings me to tears and I threw up once. I have really bad chest pain from coughing also my ribs and gut ache because it’s putting everything out. Went to the doctors and he couldn’t do anything because there is no flem/no chest infection..so therefore I am diagnosing myself as fucked. I’ve taken work off for this past week, yes you may think I’m only coughing but my two jobs are at a cafe and the other working with primary school kids so coughing my lungs up everywhere is kind of inappropriate. I’m meant to be working tomorrow at the cafe but I’m still feeling like crap and I don’t know what to do..thinking I shouldn’t work because I’ve got childcare all this week and have to be there at 7am. Another thing that is bothering me is the fact that when I’m sick or busy my friends always seem to managed to have made plans and my body knows and decides to fail on me therefore I can’t bloody do anything apart from sit at home and be sad about it all. Being sick makes me think more because I’m not out doing stuff. Wish I was getting better, don’t know what it is apart from I’m coughing and it’s keeping me up for hours at night.
I dont know how people can be so comfortable with their bodies..like im not skinny but theres girls bigger then me getting their bits out, like all the rage in fashion is to have the dresses with cut out sides or fronts, its awkward..i wish i was skinnier because im quite short and look even chubbier. Getting my points mixed up here but i wish i could find clothes that look good. Personal stylist come at me!
Watching the movie Tanner Hall, pretty full on girls drama aha. All the teenage drama to the max
Quite fucking annoyed that the short course I had planned to do in July is no longer listed on the website, looks like they have cut it out due to government costs etc, but I could have missed it, but they’d usually say if the class was full. FUCK! I was planning on doing a 36 week cert 3 in arts/craft in July and if I liked it I’d do diploma of Visual arts in 2013. Now I’ve got to decide whether to do the short course in Feb 2013 or the diploma, what if I don’t like the diploma then I’m stuck with money etc, but if I do the short course, it means I have to wait till the Feb after to enrol into the next diploma, so I’d wasted so much time. So frustrating. I was keen on quitting one of my jobs soon so I could get into arts.
